content?

I must be happy and content because this has been the longest break from the blog since the inception break of a year.

My life is filled with activities and things to keep me busy.
I must have been weak because it took this long to reach the mindset and physical presence of my body which I wanted to have in month 2.

I am living the life that guy from LivingSocial superbowl commercial. I remember being inspired by it too.

I feel alone. Not tied up. Not committed. Free.

It was this that all these people were telling me to enjoy and experience to the fullest.

However there are still people that I have to be committed to, honest consistently, treat with respect and love. I enjoy that because we have enough of boundary for me to feel that I am alone.

Self strength. Independence. Do it for myself.

why was this so hard for me to understand at that time. Can't lie. Those who know me see right through. Best thing to do is become that person, really do it. No fake bullshit.

Consistency is my number one focus. Consistent workout. Consistent work ethic. Consistent play.

Study hard, work hard, play hard. Do it because I love it. Make it so I love it when I know it is important rationally.

Had a fun day circus today with friends that I value and care. They must be so or feel the same way because those agreed to come. but it's more than that. there was chemistry. I would say about 80%.