friends are important. I have always had friends and had the natural talent to keep them close to me always. However, for a long period of time. My eyes neglected them while I was in relationship with Abby. Looking back, I was just satisfied with companionship from Abby. It was as if my security came from her rather than group of close friends. Ilan, Katy and I bonded very closely past two weeks. Drama was ubiquitous at home which I believe to be quite the rare scene. They had my back. They understood what I was going through and stayed close to me. I don't believe I have treated them well for about six months to a year. Why they had my back? I don't know. Perhaps it is like Friendship is like peeing in your pants-Everyone can see it, but only you can feel the warmth.
Katy and Ilan are rare people who ask how I am doing and then actually wait to hear the answer back. It takes years build trust, but only seconds to destroy it. trust is like a glass. easily broken, difficult to repair. I guess I learned lesson several times in my life. I have lived about quarter of my life. I want to make sure I don't make same mistakes anymore. Connection and network is valuable now more than ever. 
One day, we will look back on FEB of 2011. How crazy it was for everyone. How the whole house mood and drama came up and down. It's a new beginning. Fresh start. Now I really understand why Katy said
"Don't move on, Move forward" and Ilan said "You are torturing yourself, ignore it" I am very thankful for loyal friends. It is a tragedy that we only have 4 months left to share it. Better make the most of it!
One day, we will look back on FEB of 2011. How crazy it was for everyone. How the whole house mood and drama came up and down. It's a new beginning. Fresh start. Now I really understand why Katy said 
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