She does not like it and she is bored. She asked me many questions about my travel and all if sudden decided to quit her program and travel for next three months. I can tell she was very bored with her life.
I looked back on the time where I felt that way. Everything was same. I didn't push myself out of comfort zone I was very happy for long time with my life that I have gotten used to it for too long.
Lesson is this: don't get too comfortable. Stay hungry, be wrong by doing silly things to test boundaries and give myself some down times, feeling appreciation for life is biggest key to happiness but just telling my mind that I am thankful is a mere brainwashing and half asses. Instead let the actions my decisions lead to that feeling by going through bumps on the road. Uncanny potential is residing in me, my true happiness is embedded within it. When I overcome challenge is when I am at my utmost happy.
I am happy. I used to think being happy is the ultimate purpose of life. But now I believe unhappiness is as equally important. Not a depression, but rather rejections and let downs are necessity. Advancing, growing, also living on the edge which is actually so difficult that very few people do this.
Those people who jump from a relation to another. If they are independent ones and really give love to and ok with being vulnerable have lifestyle of living on the edge.
Those who can feel negative feelings from others, can go On with their life without receiving love, attention, respect are the ones living onthe edge.
Fighting inner ego and doing what I want despite outside noise is a good place to start.
Showing people what they are missing can be egotistical maneuver. But doing it out of love and leading by example shows character to live on the edge because there are always potential rejection if not isolation comes with it.
Let others be, but lead my life as fast, hard, effective as I can. Really let action do the explaining because it's a clearest form of communication.
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